Commitment - Staying in the Game

"Ah, the pleasant ache of well exercised muscles"

Now that's a quote that I need to be stating the next time I go for a run. The positivity that some people have, it's inspiring. I mean, most people would be complaining how sore their muscles are and whinning about how their legs are about to fall off (I know I'm one of those!). But some people, and I fully admire these people, can always see the positive in things. They express their burning, sore muscles as a pleasant feeling of well exercised muscles. And that should be the way that all of us think because we know in our heads that the only reason for our muscles to be burning is because we've pushed ourselves to work hard enough.

And for starters, I need to get back out there to start running again!
I haven't ran for almost 13 days. And if I don't kick myself in the butt to get back out there soon, I'm never going to run again. I'm always like this, I get an idea and I'm so super excited about it but then my fire always burns out and then I always just stop half way. I'm a very bad person at committing. This can apply to every part of my life. I get tired of something quickly and I'm not stable. I fluctuate a lot and I always want what other people have. I don't see what I have in front of me and I don't know how to appreciate what I have. I would fight so hard to get what other people have and then when I have it, again I want something else. It's like a cycle. I gotta learn to apprecaite what I have and I gotta learn to be STABLE. I need to be grounded. I need to learn to stick through with something and accomplish a goal, my goal. I need to be independent. I don't need anyone to do this with me, I gotta do it myself. and the key part is, I gotta do it. So I need to stick through with all the training, all the running, and I gotta get back out there and run. Run like the wind!

This is a bit sad because when Jane Peng committed herself to the Saharas Race, she got out there and trained. She trained hard and she ran every day and every night. She trained her core, she did weights. She trained man! She was all out woman! And she worked HARD for what she hoped to accomplish, while loving every moment of it! I think that's really key, to be able to do something and to ALSO love doing it. And she also had to juggle work and other activities (organizing a roof top fundraiser party, interviews, reading, karate, LIFE!). So me, I ONLY have work and nothing else going on really, so I better get my game back on and get my butt out there and train. If I don't, there's no way ho-se that I will be running a half marathon next September.

I'm committing myself to do this and I need to do this, it's all I've got. I can't lose this one.

Simba has held me down for too long, run. Run as fast as you can!